{"id":5324,"date":"2015-08-25T07:00:17","date_gmt":"2015-08-25T12:00:17","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.mominleggings.com\/?p=5324"},"modified":"2016-05-05T16:57:15","modified_gmt":"2016-05-05T21:57:15","slug":"baking-2-5-weeks","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.mominleggings.com\/baking-2-5-weeks\/","title":{"rendered":"Baking #2: 5 Weeks"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"bluemoonbelly-5w3d\"<\/a><\/p>\n

When I was pregnant my daughter, I did weekly surveys about my pregnancy. I didn\u2019t start with her until 8 weeks, but given my history, I\u2019ve started earlier with my last couple of pregnancies so I\u2019d have a record of them. If it\u2019s all the time you have with your little one, you make the most of it. And if this one sticks, well, I\u2019ll just have a few extra weeks of surveys to go on.<\/p>\n

How Far Along<\/strong>:\u00a05 weeks (pic is 5w3d)<\/p>\n

How Did You Find Out:\u00a0<\/strong>I was pretty sure I would get pregnant this cycle. When I found myself at 12 DPO crawling into bed at 9 PM, I was pretty sure I was pregnant. I waited until the next afternoon to test, and it was a strong positive. Showed it to Kellen immediately. 3 betas later, here I am.<\/p>\n

Appointments\/Milestones:\u00a0<\/strong>I\u2019ve passed 2 out of 3 loss milestones. I made it past 4 weeks, and then I made it to 5 weeks still having symptoms. My next milestone\/appointment will be the 6-week ultrasound on Monday 8\/31. I also met with an OB this week so that if my ultrasound goes well, I have a place to move onto.<\/p>\n

Size of Baby as Relative to Common Household Fruit or Vegetable<\/strong>: Appleseed<\/p>\n

Total Weight Gain<\/strong>:\u00a0My base weight was 112. I may have put on a pound or two in the last week, since I\u2019ve stopped all exercise out of fear, but I\u2019m not going to be doing regular weigh-ins this pregnancy. I\u2019ll give an update after my next doctor\u2019s appointment.<\/p>\n

Sleep<\/strong>: A little restless, probably due to anxiety. I\u2019m getting up a couple of times a night to pee, and sometimes wake up literally drowning in my own drool.<\/p>\n

What I miss<\/strong>: Dr. Pepper. I\u2019m off all caffeine until I get through my first trimester.<\/p>\n

Cravings<\/strong>: None.<\/p>\n

Symptoms<\/strong>: Fatigue is the biggie. My breasts have responded to the pregnancy as well. They\u2019re the visible symptom keeping me from going into an anxiety spiral. Every time my symptoms lessen even a little, I worry this pregnancy is ending.<\/p>\n

Emotions:<\/strong>\u00a0Anxious.<\/p>\n

Maternity Clothes:<\/strong>\u00a0Not even going there.<\/p>\n

PgAL Thoughts:\u00a0<\/strong>I\u2019m adding this section, because I feel like it\u2019s something I need to address each week, at least for now. I\u2019m participating in a birth month forum, and it has continually surprised me how so many other people, so early in their pregnancies are already talking about maternity clothes and registries and announcements. Some have already made announcements saying \u201cCOMING IN APRIL!\u201d I\u2019m pregnant, but I don\u2019t know if this baby is coming in April. I don\u2019t know if I\u2019ll ever wear maternity clothes again or if I\u2019ll ever get to make the big announcement. Another quiet loss seems more likely, almost inevitable. I keep trying to visualize this baby\u2013my appleseed\u2013with its little nubs where arms and legs eventually will be, growing and thriving in my body. I try to hold in my mind the image of a tiny gray blob with a beating heart on a screen. I want so badly for it to be real. I tried to reach out with my mind this morning: what do you need? It said back to me: water and space. I\u00a0don\u2019t know if I can nourish this one, if I can grow to accommodate it. If it were a matter of sheer will-power, I would make it happen. But I have so little control. I feel so alien to everyone else, whose bodies effortlessly grow babies, who can feel joy and excitement, where I only feel anxiety and dread. Every time I even think about looking ahead, I feel like a fraud. That won\u2019t be you, my PgAL brain tells me. I am trying so hard to prove it wrong.<\/p>\n

Best Moment This Week<\/strong>: I met with a new OB yesterday and really liked her, so I\u2019ll be switching to their practice when\/if I graduate from my RE.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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